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I Passed!

I am NOT diabetic. Woo hoo! All of that fretting was for nothing. If only I could just harness the energy I spend on worrying for something useful, I’d be unstoppable. But it’s what I do. On the bright side, I barely thought about it all weekend. I made a decision that I’d call the doctor’s office on Monday, and that I wouldn’t worry about it until then. Somehow I actually made that work. Maybe that’s because I was actually asleep for so much of the weekend.

Here’s the interesting thing. The nurse said that while I’m not diabetic, my numbers weren’t exactly "good." I gather my three hour number was forty-nine. Keep in mind that I don’t really know what any of this means, but she said that apparently after a large sugar load I tend to go hypoglycemic and that she figured that by the end of the test I probably was feeling pretty crappy. This is a very accurate statement. She said I was probably feeling kind of sick, dizzy, sweaty, and really hungry. She missed mentioning "cranky," but she doesn’t know me, so that’s okay. I’ve suspected this for years, and actually mentioned it to my doctor at one point. I love my doctor. Her reply when I commented that I noticed a tendency to feel sick if I hadn’t eaten anything for several hours was "so eat something." This is exactly what the nurse just told me. I may stash a jar of peanut butter in my desk for emergencies. I’m not a huge fan of it, so it’ll be safe from random snacking. I also just found out from my mother that my dad has the same problem, and his dad did also. Nice to know I’m continuing a family tradition.

In other news, the spare bedroom cum nursery is chugging along. We (read "I" and my husband agreed) decided to take down the shutters that were in there and put up some mini-blinds (yes, yes, we’ll loop the cords up...). I’ve put up some curtains that mom gave me: they’re actually from my room in Herkimer when I was little. They’re white sheers with a bit of a ruffle. They’re cute, they look nice in there, and it will make my mother happy. I need to install some hooks for the tie backs, and we need to measure for the blinds. Other than that I mucked out a bunch of stuff that’s been languishing in there for a while: the box of assorted musical instruments, the tubs of clothes destined for the Salvation Army, Bob’s archery gear (he took care of that,) a tub of fabric I’d forgotten about, etc. There’re a few big things that still need to happen in there. There is a dresser that I’m going to get rid of that needs to come out. The problem with that is that I need someplace to put it until I figure out how to get rid of it. I’m thinking Craig’s List. The closet needs to be painted, because it’s uglier in there than I remember, and if I’m going to take the doors off for a while, I’m going to have to look at it. The papasan chair needs to be relocated until a final decision is made about whether we have room somewhere or if it goes away. I need a bed stand in a proper scale for the room, and I need to bring in the crib and changing table. At least I have a time frame on that – Bruce is bringing them down from Syracuse next Monday. So I’ll be able to get that set up. I think that having a crib in the house will make this all feel a bit more immanent. It would be nice to be able to get the bookcases stained and sealed before the baby comes, but that’s not mission critical. We’re doing pretty well in there. The nice thing about having a girl is that a lot of my old things can be reused. On the other hand, it seems to have completely unhinged my entire family. Apparently my sister-in-law is shopping. And giggling. It’s nice that she and mom are on good terms again, but this is a little odd. What I hadn’t realized is that there are no girls in the family. My brother had two boys. His wife’s sister had three boys. Her other sister had a boy. My brother is one of two boys. His brother-in-law is one of two boys. My blood-relation cousins are three boys.

This kid is going to be able to get away with murder with the extended family.

Yesterday we went on an excursion to Babies R Us. I figured it was a good one-stop-shop to look stuff over, and they’ve got the largest display of car seats that I’ve found so far. We spent a couple of hours pawing over the car seats. Bob scoped out all of the mechanical issues and I checked out disassembly as regards washability. That has caused me to completely dismiss Britax. I was already gagging at the price tag (especially given that we need two of them,) and the last straw was finding out that the covers aren’t machine washable. They’re having a car seat demo there next Sunday, so we’ll go to that before we make a decision. I also want to see if they’ll let us take the display out to the parking lot to test it in our cars. If you were to judge by the size of things and the reviews that I'm reading, you’d be pretty sure that we’re the only people buying car seats who drive compact cars instead of SUV’s.

Maybe, but we’re getting a whole lot better mileage than they are.

I did try to start looking at registering. Really I did. But we ran into a couple of roadblocks. The first one was sheer overload. That’s just an awful lot of stuff to look at, and I started out tired. The second problem was ignorance on a staggering number of levels. We have no idea what we need. They gave us a nice checklist, but we have no way of knowing what we need to have vs. what would be nice to have vs. what is just "stuff." We’ve got enough stuff without adding more. Trust me on this one. A subset of the ignorance problem is that we just don’t know what a lot of these things are. Anything in the "nursing" category for example is a complete mystery. Of course the breast-feeding class isn’t until the end of August, and I really should be done with this thing by then. I have a plan for figuring everything out, but Sunday was completely overwhelming and I have no time in the evenings until Thursday. I’ll plan to start my research then.

I seemed to be the only female in the store who wasn’t having a great time. It’s another area where I just seem to be wired slightly askew. I still don’t coo over picture of cute babies - or over the babies themselves, for that matter. I didn’t enjoy looking at baby things. I did spend a lot of time saying "Holy crap that’s expensive!" but I’m not sure what that says about me (besides "I’m cheap.") I worry a touch that I’m just a little too cold-hearted for this endeavor. I guess in a few months we’ll know.

Meanwhile I will revel in my continued ability to just eat the best that I can without having to track and regulate it  to a huge level of minutia. So far, the sciatica and the exhaustion is the worst of it, and while not fun it’s survivable. I have also now firmly vowed to myself that I will not have histrionics over the next thing that startles me, because I didn't behave well through this episode.

Remind me of that when I go shopping for a few maternity clothes while the summer clothes are still available.



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Jul. 7th, 2008 07:00 pm (UTC)

*does maniacal happy dance for you*

Anyone who doesn't have to manage their eating habits to the degree Diabetes requires wins! Besides, I can be OCD enough about this for both of us.
Jul. 7th, 2008 07:26 pm (UTC)
Yes, but look at all the good things that level of concentration is doing for you!

What I've decided to take out of this is that I'm going to look at my eating habits even harder. We've really reformed a LOT since January, but there's always room for improvement. For instance, I need to work even harder at not medicating stress with sugar. So that's the positive lesson that I'm going to take away from it.
Jul. 7th, 2008 10:47 pm (UTC)
Sugar is super bad for aggravating hypoglycemia, that's berry, berry true. My chiro told me I had it when I was a teen...but he's a quack and didn't know what he was talking about. I was sugar dependent, but I was NOT hypoglycemic. (I used to get really bad headaches if I skipped a meal and usually most of my headaches, whether food induced or not, were cured by a glass of Kool-Aid...meaning they were brought on by a lower level of sugar than I was accustomed to. Sad. But I no longer have that problem, unless I've been on a temporary bad eating spree due to illness or something. I do tend to eat worse when I'm unwell, because I just can't be bothered to eat anything that I can't just unwrap and shove in my mouth on the spot.)
Jul. 8th, 2008 02:20 am (UTC)
Yep. Apparently I spiked high, leveled out nicely, and then crashed. Which is a pattern that I've seen in myself before when I get concentrating on something and neglect to eat at the proper intervals. I've generally gotten better about that over the years, but I figure it can't hurt to smooth things out more and it definitely can't hurt to get even more of the high fructose corn syrup out of my life. I know it's not good for me - I just really LIKE it. :-)
Jul. 7th, 2008 07:50 pm (UTC)
Congrats. I would also suggest seeing if the store will let you try strollers to see if they fit in your trunk. My sister did not do that and it takes her 10 minutes to get the stroller in her car each time because it only fits if inderted in one very specific way.
Jul. 8th, 2008 02:21 am (UTC)
We've already been given a very nice second hand stroller, and I know that it fits in my car because that's how it came home! So we're all set there. Not sure if I'll ever *use* it, but I've got it if I want it.
Jul. 7th, 2008 09:30 pm (UTC)
Oh good, I was worried about you & I'm glad you passed the test. ^_^ Gestational diabetes tends to go away once the baby is born but sometimes it doesn't, & who needs diabetes? Also babies can get HUGE if you have gestational diabetes & since you're going natural, that'd be a big slice of No Fun At All. *hug* Glad everything is ok.

I get hypoglycemic too. Know what helps? Eating a small amount of something high in protien, frequently. LOw fat & protien is the best. Before bed I'd have a small piece of lean turkey or ham, & I'd do that a few times a day, & it kept me from getting shakey & weird. Give it a shot...just buy a small package of lean coldcuts of some sort & eat a single piece every two hours...it'll do wonders for your energy too.
Jul. 8th, 2008 02:25 am (UTC)
It certainly wouldn't have been the end of the world, but it was something I seriously did not want to deal with. Gestational diabetes can also drive preeclampsia, which my pre-existing blood pressure already puts me at risk for. I do NOT want to hear the words "bed rest" because I have a finite amount of short term disability, and I REALLY do not want to potentially have to put a one month old in day care! Three will probably be heart-wrenching enough.

Theoretically, I'm not supposed to have cold cuts because of the potential for listeria, but I haven't been terribly worried about it. I may see if I can find some inoffensive whole grain crackers and have one or two with a dab of peanut butter every few. That's also easy to keep in my desk at work.
Jul. 7th, 2008 09:55 pm (UTC)
Glad to hear about the non-diabetes. Protein snacks are good -- a good hypoglycemic diet is pretty similar to a good diabetic diet, you want to keep the blood sugar levels from wide fluctuations. (My uncle is hypoglycemic, not that he's ever taken that good care of himself.)

If you want to put up a copy of "the list" I'm sure I and the other mothers/aunts/big sisters here would be happy to give you our feedback as to what is essential, what is nice, and what simply makes the store money.

Jul. 8th, 2008 02:26 am (UTC)
Now *there's* a thought. I'll do that in the next day or two...
Jul. 8th, 2008 02:06 pm (UTC)
Any way I can help with the list let me know. If you want, you could fax or e-mail it to me and I'll type it in for you (lots of free time at the moment).
Jul. 7th, 2008 10:42 pm (UTC)
That's great! Because even though I'd have tried to reassure you about taking needles, if that is something necessary for gestational diabetes (probably not, unless you can't control your levels through diet)...it'd be hard to do. I don't know whether insulin shots are sub-cutaneous or intra-muscular, but if they're intra-muscular (and they were when my grandmother used to take them) I would have to fib a little. I took Avonex for a year (intramuscular) and did manage to give myself the injections three times, with much shaking and hesitating...and then one day I. Just. Could. Not. Do. It. And from then on, my mother had to do it for me. I'm not even scared of having needles done on me! But if I have to do them myself, freehand...I just freak right out. I switched back to Copaxone for many reasons, but one of the best things about it is that even though you have to do a needle every day (as oppsed to once a week on Avonex), it is subcutaneous and can be done with an auto-injector...meaning all you have to do is set it to your skin in the right spot and press a button, and the work is all done for you, to the exact right depth every time.

I do think there are pen injectors for diabetes though and that would be no big deal at ALL. Seriously.

But luckily, you no need!
Jul. 8th, 2008 02:33 am (UTC)
I don't know if they're sub-cutaneous or intra-muscular either, and I'm very glad not to need to know!

You know, I'm kind of glad to hear about your reaction to Avonex because it makes me feel like less of a freak. I'm no big deal about getting shots. Blood draws are unremarkable (I've got a nice collection of bruises from Thursday, although none of them hurt at the time.) It's something that's needful and I do it. The idea of doing it to *myself* sent me right over the edge. Full body heebee-jeebees. I couldn't quite manage to reconcile how I could harbor both of those feelings at one time. And I knew I couldn't ask my husband to help, because he's really bad about needles. Better than he used to be, but still really bad.

I'd like to think that I could step up and do whatever needed to be done, but there would probably have been some serious hysterics.

But it's really nice to know that you would have been there for some hand-holding. Sometimes you just need to know that there's someone else out there who understands and is thinking good things for you. But I'm really glad not to need it.

I am firmly resolved not to panic over whatever the next thing is! Much.
Aug. 25th, 2008 03:28 pm (UTC)
Subcutaneous. Injectors make it dead simple. Not painless, but easy.
Aug. 25th, 2008 04:57 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I mentioned that in my comment. :) I have to take one every day, though not for diabetes. They still suck, though. But the auto-injector takes the intimidation out and just leaves a bit of sting.
Jul. 8th, 2008 06:23 pm (UTC)
YAY! For once, I'm glad I did waste my time with advice. :^)

I didn't get all gooey inside looking at babies and baby shrapnel when I was pregnant the first time, either--I think the Mommy drugs kick in for different people at different times. I don't think I really felt like a Mommy for a couple of weeks, and I can't pinpoint an exact event. (My husband and I would look at one-week-old Kiddo and say, "Don't your parents miss you? When are they picking you up?")

I *can* say I feel like a Mommy now: I get called that 1,000 a day...usually proceeding a request for goods or services...

Best of luck with the car seat thing--I could never get a handle on it.
Jul. 8th, 2008 06:34 pm (UTC)
I think we're pretty close to having the car seat thing figured out. Or maybe I'm delusional. But sometimes it's handy being married to a mechanical engineer. The only question is one of fitting into our small cars.
Jul. 15th, 2008 02:12 am (UTC)
Getting in touch from Ledyard
Thought it was about time I dropped in to say hi and congrats and all that. Eilis is now in Crete and probably rather out of touch. I got the usual help me call from Istron when she couldn't get ahold of the Irish contingent with the phone number they'd given her.

With regard to being cooey about babies in general--I never was. Somehow it's different with your own, but somebody else's is just that.

I'm in the quilty mood. Any color scheme being favored?
Jul. 26th, 2008 04:41 pm (UTC)
Before I forget again... we've got a ton of safety plugs. I ended up with more than this house needs. Want some?
Jul. 26th, 2008 11:46 pm (UTC)
Nope. Thanks.
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