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Holy crap I'm tired

I promise that eventually I'll talk about something other than my damn shoulder.  Really.  I did a fiber demo at the Big E (three heddles, one hand!), we had a really cool A&S event Saturday, and I have to catch you all up on Henry - I haven't posted any of his baby pictures.  Summation - he's really cute when he's asleep, and kittens are made out of rubber and velcro.  I cannot wait until he's neutered...

Yesterday's PT knocked me flat.  Okay, some of that was the pain pill, but I never really bounced back, and I finally caved and used a second pain pill at bedtime.  I never worked up the guts to try another set of the new exercises, so today I figured I'd best do better.  I don't have my pulley thing yet, but in the interim I'm using a cane to push my arm around.  I've gotten two sets of everything in today - I'm aiming for four.  I don't know if that's too much or not enough, but it's feeling pretty ambitious to me.  I understand why the doctor didn't even mention sending me back to work yet.  Done right, PT is apparently a full time job.

Time like this I wonder if I'm going to be able to see this through.  I knew it was going to be hard, and I'd resolved myself to get through whatever was necessary.  But I'm not a self-starter, and that appears to be what it's all about.  I have to wonder if I can keep up with this, or if I'm going to fall off the wagon, so to speak.

I'm tired.  I'm tired of being tired.

I'm also starting to whine, so it's time to stop yammering.  I'll try another set in a couple of hours.


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Sep. 24th, 2013 08:02 pm (UTC)
You'll get there, it may just be on your timeline rather than their "generic, every (wo)man" schedule.

While it's not working as well right now, and the exercises make it hurt and exhaust you, are you sleeping better? I don't know if I'd feel the same way about a shoulder, but I was pretty happy to give up a small percentage of functionality with my knee to have it stop waking me up several times a night.
Sep. 25th, 2013 02:55 pm (UTC)
Whine away hon. It sucks.

For someone used to being really active and self-sufficient, this is ridiculously frustrating, I'm sure. It wears you down quickly emotionally, which adds a huge dose on the physical tired.

You'll get there.
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