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I suck at physical therapy

Today was my first PT appointment, and it got off to an inauspicious start.  Bob  decided to do one more thing before leaving work, and instead of five minutes, it took thirty.  So instead of being fifteen minutes early to do the paperwork and eval, we were ten minutes late.  They almost turned me away.  So I didn't get off to a confident start.  I also forgot the pain pill.

This is all passive therapy.  I lay there and try to relax the arm and not cry.  She tries to get any of the joints in my right arm to move.  The problem is that apparently I can't relax.  I tried - I really did.  But it's not something I can do normally (just ask my massage therapist,) and as soon as it starts to hurt everything tenses.

And it hurts a lot.

I tried my homework tonight, and I can't tell if I'm doing it correctly.  I'm supposed to lean forward, letting the arm hang.  Then I'm supposed to gently swing it like a pendulum by moving my body and continuing to just let it hang.  The problem is that I just can't tell if I'm getting the motion from my torso like I'm supposed to, or if I'm moving my arm with my arm.  Can't tell, and I've never been good at relaxing.

I'm also getting tired of having my sleep issues dismissed.  I can't sleep on my back.  I just can't - I've never been able to.  But all I get is "most people find they have to sleep sitting up.  If you have a recliner..."  I don't have a recliner.  I can't sleep sitting up.  I  can't bloody sleep on my back!  I'm a side sleeper.  I would shave my head if that would allow me to sleep on my right side for even one night.

At the moment I'm very discouraged.  And very tired.  And I can't sleep, in case you can't tell by the time stamp.

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kamau_d_lyon
Aug. 31st, 2013 12:56 pm (UTC)
PT is hard but the more you push through it the better you'll be in the long run. Give it time, get some rest and stay in touch with friends. If you want a recliner I have one that is in storage.

Thoughts and prayers are with you.
gwendolynbasing
Aug. 31st, 2013 06:59 pm (UTC)
Charles is right, but I agree, it is hard, but worth it in the end. If you can get back to where you were before the injury, in our profession, it is a win and worth it! If you find that you are not making any progress at this physical therapy group, try another. You do not have to go to the one attached to your ortho if the therapist and you are not getting along. Obviously, it may take more than 1 visit to know. Remember too that you are doing things with your "new repaired" body, which has not moved this way before or in a long time. Heat and gentle stretching are your friends. They will let you know when you are ready to do more. So will your ability. Keep your chin up!
pippagrey
Sep. 1st, 2013 10:32 pm (UTC)
Ick. I understand about the sleep. Admittedly I can sometimes fall asleep on my back, but I don't stay there.

And there is nothing as annoying as having medical professionals tell you that problems aren't problems. I'm switching doctors since the one I've seen for 15 years informed me that some serious quality of life issues I'm having are basically all in my head, I'm just getting older and I need to learn to ignore the aches and twinges of age. The new doctor has done testing, and guess what, they're real problems.

How long before you can sleep on your side, either one?

Edited at 2013-09-01 10:33 pm (UTC)
pippagrey
Sep. 2nd, 2013 02:57 pm (UTC)
Additional thought: maybe you could ask the doctor for a muscle relaxant to go with (or instead of) the pain pill before PT?
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